Why didn't I make Bryan "get fixed"? I have had this question quite a bit. That's because I love him and didn't want him to have to go through something like that. Ok...I'm lying, not about the love him part though. Really because of insurance reasons, it made more sense for me to do it since my deductible for the year was met after just giving birth.
Bryan was able to take off most of the week to be with me after the surgery, and I couldn't have done it without him. I think one of the best gifts I got on my birthday (I'm still waiting for my other gift Bry), was a nap. I slept during the surgery of course, and than came home and slept another 2 hours...wow that felt great. I needed it so badly. I wasn't able to breastfeed Landry for 24-48hrs after the procedure, so he was forced to have my frozen supply of breast milk for a day. He handled it like a champ when Daddy was feeding him, but if decided to help and give him one while he was propped on a pillow, he would began to weep like a little puppy...so sad.
It was a strange feeling, but also a very reassuring feeling to have something so permanent done. I enjoyed the years of getting pregnant and giving birth. What a beautiful gift to be able to do so. My heart aches for those that are not able to do so on there own. I know what it feels like to suffer some loses, I know what it feels like to want a baby so bad you would do anything, I know what it feels like to be nervous about adding another one to your already full house, I know how it feels to have a body that won't work as well as it use to at 23, I know how all these things because I have experienced them all at some point in the last 10 years. So now I know that tying my tubes was the best choice for me right now. What a wonder feeling it is to know this.
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